Padron is the last stop before Santiago. We are in a lovely hotel named for Rosalia Castro Hebron, a revered poet of Spain, Portugal and beyond and especially Padron where she was laid to rest. The Renfe train goes by right across the road; yes, the famous train which went off the track going into Santiago two years ago because of excessive speed from the inattention of the driver while on his cell phone!
Despite the modernization of Spain - the train just went by as I write - there is typical Spain here - just a hint of sewage on the air, dogs barking in the distance, a stillness as night falls.
I have had a meltdown this evening. I simply cannot finish this Camino as I did two years ago. I have had incredible nerve pain in my leg every day so, anything more than about 4 or 5 kilometres has been a challenge. I am sad, disappointed and annoyed I cannot confirm to my daughter especially, the person I wanted her to meet. But I am reminded of the quote I had framed for David and Graham, "Courage does not always roar. Sometimes courage is the quiet voice at the end of the day saying, 'I will try again tomorrow.”
However I get there tomorrow, I will still present myself for a compostela knowing I have accomplished at least one of my goals which was to get a piece of my son to Santiago. Certainly, not the way I wanted or expected but we have come as a family nonetheless and it has been good.
Buen Camino!
Sometimes a person, especially a parent, wants to take the pain their children feels and maybe you took on some of Lauras pain.
ReplyDeleteYou should feel quite proud of yourself and your family to make this journey together. I'm so sorry you are in pain and will hope and pray that it is better tomorrow. You completely deserve the Compostela regardless of whether you can walk the last day. So proud of you from here. Having some sparkling water and wine with dinner tonight and toasting you all from afar. Xo Leanne
Please note there's not many places to stop for food on this day so stop when you get a chance.
Love peace. An adventure is an adventure because there are hard moments? Be kind to yourself.
ReplyDeleteHearing the heartache in your writing today and yet know that there is a greater plan in all things on this trip. I pray these deep roots of shared experience. memories. food. drink, laughter and grief will lead ultimately to beautiful fruit in all three of your lives. Much love to you.. Joy
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